31 Days is a writing project where bloggers publish each day of October. I’m connecting with a group who are doing this with a series of 5 minute free writes. Five minutes, one word prompt, zero edits, just hit publish.
KNOW.
I’ve generally been scared to admit what I don’t know. Sometimes I’ve even caught myself lying by omission in a conversation rather than speak up to ask about what I don’t know. After the fact, I’m a little baffled by my choice. What’s the big deal with just saying I don’t know?
But sometimes, we know something and want to pretend we don’t. We hide the thing we know. I know my parenting shortfalls, but I want to hide behind the image of a so-called perfect mom. I know the good I ought to do, but I want to hide behind my to-do list. I know the suffering of others around the world, but I want to hide behind my budget instead of give.
I know who I really am, but I get scared to just let that be true.
I don’t know that God can do much with me when I’m hiding instead of owning what I know to be true of myself. Grace takes us as we are, certainly, but is there a part of participating in grace that asks me to be candid about what is true of myself? No pretending, self-promoting, self-protecting? No hiding?
That’s time.
Come out of hiding
You’re safe here with Me
There’s no need to cover
What I already see
You’ve got your reasons
But I hold your peace
You’ve been on lockdown
And I hold the key
‘Cause I loved you before you knew it was love
And I saw it all, still I chose the cross
And you were the one that I was thinking of
When I rose from the grave
Now rid of the shackles, My victory’s yours
I tore the veil for you to come close
There’s no reason to stand at a distance anymore
You’re not far from home
I’ll be your lighthouse
When you’re lost at sea
And I will illuminate
Everything
No need to be frightened
By intimacy
No, just throw off your fear
And come running to Me
‘Cause I loved you before you knew it was love
And I saw it all, still I chose the cross
And you were the one that I was thinking of
When I rose from the grave
Now rid of the shackles, My victory’s yours
I tore the veil for you to come close
There’s no reason to stand at a distance anymore
You’re not far from home
Keep on coming
And oh as you run
What hindered love
Will only become
Part of the story
You’re almost home now
Please don’t quit now
You’re almost home to Me
